i was 17. it's called never-ending.

�1�

trying on
the colors of night
they fall loosely about my soul
defining its shape
only slightly & not
touching the earth
but brushing the dust stirred up
by my feet
as i run.

�2�
i seek peace along
a well-worn trail, long forgotten &
dimmed by years;
one full day's walk
from reality, i lie back
watching

�3�
the grass sweeps
forth & back
across the sky
as the wind hushes through,
whispering of wisdom lost;
suddenly
a fleeting light
catches on some hard, clear idea
& glitters back, rhyming
with a shadow in my mind

�4�
i dream my life backward
& watch it in the mirror:
the angle of the reflection
is equal to living
twice,
halfway;
the purpose of this being
to never ever finish

�5�
the phobia:
fear of endings
which bring forth
beginning, building on
upward, the fear
of heights;

there is
much shelter
in the incomplete life...

�6�
as it is, i am afraid
to finish this poem