creative visualizations

i imagine myself discovering newdifferent energies within my imbalanced chemistry, i even believe i've already done some discovering, based on evidence that i'll refrain from enumerating here (suffice to say it falls somewhere between hubris & arrogance, & leave it at that).

is it still low self-esteem if i suspect that my high self-esteem is somewhere between extremely optimistic & delusional, based on actual factual accomplishments? it doesn't matter, as long as there is a core within which believes in a basis not yet accomplished, even if it consists of some fairly far-fetched dreams. the quirky loser with big plans is always a fun character to play in any good story, and that's the worst that can come of this, anything else is pie. a la mode. with a cup of really fine, fresh coffee. in a beach house.

somewhere between extremely optimistic & delusional, which is fine by me.

so anyway.

i am sooooo blonde. and you know what? it like, totally fits.

so there's this wonderful dictionary online, we are talking in-depth reference here, which i heard of because they found kurtwood's and my photographs on the stock photo site.

they used mine for these: 101, 95, arachnophobia, Born, Brass, buick, busy, cocoon, darkness, darn, daughter's, decorate, decorated, digging, ensued, fastest, fear, five, halloween, hour, however, hundred, hydrant, inch, kid, knocked, legged, miles, ninety, override, per, regal, saved, southbound, speedometer, spelling, spider's, spindly, straighten, terrified, today, ventura, vs.

they used kurtwood's for: grass, hand, worth. they gave us nice credit for it & everything.

hmm. did i have anything else to say? i am soooo blonde, have i mentioned that?