i’m not sick but i’m not well

?i wanna publish zines
and rage against machines
i wanna pierce my tongue
it doesn’t hurt, it feels fine?*

yeah. this has been bugging me something fierce. i’ve wanted to do it for the longest time, but with barely a beer budget to my name, i can ill afford to hire someone to thrust a big needle through my tongue & put a pretty little barbell in it.

why though? why do i want this? i already have a pierced nose, six ear piercings, & a tattoo. i have two more tattos planned but that will take some time, to really find the right ones, though i have ideas. also, there’s that annoying budget issue.

once i came this close. i was downtown wandering, money in pocket, & i happened upon the local HA tattoo/piercing parlor. i was ready to go, then i realised i had to have surgery the next day & probably they’d make me take it out. (hey, that should have satisfied the cravings for metal — the titanium plate & six metal screws in that little hand bone). but it didn’t.

so, anyway, why? really? it’s hardly rebellious anymore. unless it is. i think it does hold some shock value still, even if only among the very conservative. i would settle for that. plus it would make the defiant act of sticking out the tongue ever so much more meaningful.

side note: i don’t hit notify on every post, i don’t wanna be a blog announce spammer. i’m thinking this one should go unannounced, but, then again, isn’t it all about attention? & i’m not just a spokesperson for this beer here. unless i am.

*full lyrics in ?more?


flagpole sitta

i had visions, i was in them
i was looking into the mirror
to see a little bit clearer
rottenness and evil in me

fingertips have memories
mine can’t forget the curves of your body
and when i feel a bit naughty
i run it up the flagpole and see who salutes
(but no one ever does)

i’m not sick but i’m not well
and i’m so hot cause i’m in hell

been around the world and found
that only stupid people are breeding
the cretins cloning and feeding
and i don’t even own a tv

put me in the hospital for nerves
and then they had to commit me
you told them all i was crazy
they cut off my legs now i’m an amputee, god damn you

i’m not sick but i’m not well
and i’m so hot cause i’m in hell
i’m not sick but i’m not well
and it’s a sin to live so well

i wanna publish zines
and rage against machines
i wanna pierce my tongue
it doesn’t hurt, it feels fine
the trivial sublime
i’d like to turn off time
and kill my mind
you kill my mind

paranoia paranoia
everybody’s coming to get me
just say you never met me
i’m going underground with the moles
hear the voices in my head
i swear to god it sounds like they’re snoring
but if you’re bored then you’re boring
the agony and the irony, they’re killing me

i’m not sick but i’m not well
and i’m so hot cause i’m in hell
i’m not sick but i’m not well
and it’s a sin to live so well

26 thoughts on “i’m not sick but i’m not well

  1. I think they don’t usually administer local anesthetic for tongue piercings but I’d be more than glad to volunteer my services in that department, kd, despite my personal and professional advice to NOT get this particular body mod done 🙂

  2. well, thanks, but i don’t really need anesthetic. i can handle it. i mean, the tattoo didn’t even bother me that much. you know, if you’ve done childbirth, you can do piercing. the nose didn’t hurt a bit.

  3. tattoos? i need one in the middle of the small of my back. i may be the only girl in ventura without one, & i feel so left out…

  4. “side note: i don’t hit notify on every post, i don’t wanna be a blog announce spammer. i’m thinking this one should go unannounced, but, then again, isn’t it all about attention?”

    But I’m here several times a day reading into your “Chocolate covered cherries=sex” posts… But I’ll join your “notify” list if it makes you feel better (uhm… or is that “obligated”?). *EvilGrin*

  5. Oops, no problem with the board – it was just my stupid system!

    Maybe if I went with y’all to get a tattoo I could get over my needle fear. You think they’d give me a poke with one of the needles just to let me know what it feels like? How long’s it take? I have always wanted one… a bat of course!

  6. well, mine took about an hour, but it varies, depending on the size & complexity of your design. & one poke with the needle isn’t really a good indicator of the pain level — the outline hurts more, but after a few minutes in any one area there is some numbness. i’m really kind of a wuss when it comes to pain, but the tattoo was different somehow. i just kept thinking of how cool it was going to look, & how i was going to have it forever. it made me happy to think that.

  7. hmmm. so how big is yours? inches-wise?
    i may definitely consider this if we have time in Vegas, and we can find a tat place that looks ok. and if y’all are gonna go get something pierced or tattooed anyhow and i’m taggin along, i might just have to get one…

  8. well, i think it’s about 4″ high by about 3″ wide, but the whole area’s not inked — it’s the sobe lizards, btw, ’cause i liked the yin/yang lizardiness of them.

  9. I have no tats but I’ve thought about it. If I ever did it, I’d get something on the tops of my feet — a Chinese character to help guide my feet on the right path. I can’t find the right character, tho. Not that I’m looking that hard, either.

    And I have no interesting piercings altho I do enjoy them on others. I’d consider doing my belly button but that’s about it.

  10. Not the tongue.. Not the tongue! You’ll walk around sounding like Cindy Brady for the rest of your life. 😉

  11. I’ve been obsessing about getting my tongue done, too. Despite all of the obvious reasons why I shouldn’t do it, I really want to have that barbell in my tongue, and I want to do naughty things with it.

    Hey… let’s do it together in Vegas, wanna?

  12. I’ve joined your notify list…

    even though NO ONE joins mine 😉 *nudge nudge, wink wink*

    I don’t really like the idea of piercings, but then again that’s what the pain of monthly IV treatments will do to you.

  13. Well dangit, I wanted to be notified! I had to buy that cd after going around singing “I’m not sick but I’m not well” for about 2 weeks – and it really fit the mood I was in. And now of course you win the honorary title of Person Who Has Stuck a Song in My Brain! Hee hee!

    I have always wanted a tattoo but have a thing about needles. Also I’m never sure that I wouldn’t eventually be bored with the design I chose. (I know, get another one then!) And I could never pierce my toungue – I had enough trouble talking with braces for 5 years, I couldn’t imagine being able to speak clearly with something in my tongue! But then, I have to babble for a living, so it matters a bit. But hey, I’ll go along with y’all to Vegas and be your moral support! 🙂

  14. ?Hey… let’s do it together in Vegas, wanna??

    it certainly is going to be a lively convention. people getting shaved, peirced, maybe even married… god i can’t wait.

    but i don’t know if i’d want to do the tongue at vegas, because it DOES interfere with the talking for a couple of days (then you do adjust – i know lots of people with tongue rings, & they sound just fine). i want to have it done before vegas though. ’cause, i want to do naughty things with it too!

  15. Great idea! I have one already that I want to get covered, but that’s going to be a long, expensive process. So I’ll come up with a small one that I’d like to get while I’m there. How fun!

  16. It took three or four hours to get my tattoo done. It wasn?t that bad. The worst part of it was the color (there?s some red in it) because the skin was quite irritated after some hours!

    batgrl: You don?t have to fear the needle it doesn?t even look like a needle! The worst thing about that is the noise. It?s really loud. By the way, I don?t know where you wanted it to be but you don?t have to look at it getting done, right?

  17. well umm i have my tongue pierced and it didnt hurt at all…..its kinda kool i like it a lot except for the fact that my aunt is trying to convince my mother that i got it for sexual pleasures (which is not true) i have wanted it since i was five years old, ten years later i got it and i love it……. be brave get it done just eat soft foods like soup and noodles for the first couple days then you will be fine no worries….

  18. well umm i have my tongue pierced and it didnt hurt at all…..its kinda kool i like it a lot except for the fact that my aunt is trying to convince my mother that i got it for sexual pleasures (which is not true) i have wanted it since i was five years old, ten years later i got it and i love it……. be brave get it done just eat soft foods like soup and noodles for the first couple days then you will be fine no worries….

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