fumbling around. too much to think. more than i can say at one sitting, or even if i had a day, a whole day just to myself with this computer & some peace, in which to let the flood of words rush out onto the lighted page & save them & release them as time & attention spans permit. oh, i could theoretically write, right now. but realistically, i can’t.
i would like to write about weblogging friendships & what they have done for me, about the seventeen count ’em seventeen links i have saved to add to my already overwhelming list of blogs to read. the past two, three days i have gone through that entire linklist over there in the sidebar, more or less, along with some others. this is excessive, i know. it ate up all the time i might have devoted to projects i have pending, but that’s what it’s meant to do, isn’t it? distraction. diversion. the giving & receiving of attention. the taking of attention from the matters at hand, which tend to stress me anyway. this surfing is only a shifting of the stress, really.
i had almost the inspiration for an actual design, i am about through with these default templates i’ve only just shaded in & lived with for the two months six days this blog of mine has existed. it begain as an experiment with movable type & quickly got out of hand (imagine that! i mean, who knew?). now it is… this, another part of the too much i have to do these days. i love it, i do.
& with that i’d like to thank you for visiting & reading, & then go & get myself some rest, not right away mind you, but soon. maybe it’s rest that would clear my head enough to express all these too many things i’m thinking?