so the current tangent i’m off on seems to be these issues with quitting things (like smoking) & other attempts at abstinence. i have a problem with abstinence. i will struggle for moderation in ways that seem excessive, but i maintain they are not, simply because i’d be failing then, wouldn’t i? ok then.
i find posting a lot helps but the precipitous drop in comments has me concerned that i’m getting boring. oh well fuck it. this is my therapy & as such it does not have to be interesting all the time. if this is tedious to you, well, come back another time, things change around here. it’s always so different from one week to the next i often wonder, what IS my purpose here? i always fancied that if i had a site with a central theme, it would be more expressive. expressing my difficulties with focus as a way of defining who i am, maybe. hmm. what exactly am i saying?
i am not sure but i’ll know later when i come back to re-read this. read between my own lines. that’s another reason i’m here, writing this, it is the ideal medium for what i just described. especially the ediiting part. i try not to do too much, but when i need to, i really do need to.
i’m going nowhere with this? maybe not. we’ll see.