around four, the headache set in. not pounding but piercing & sharp, though not focused into a particular point.
i blame microsoft, the system, the media, & all the other various & sundry powers that would be, for paining me so. how am i supposed to figure all this out, conform (at least minimally) to accepted standards of behaviour, & either cope or ignore the pressure, respectively, all at once? especially when it grips my skull so tightly & makes me want to fold my arms on the desk & lay my head down & escape by blaming faceless institutions for my issues.
there is no escape. nor should there be. & the entities i’ve blamed are entirely unrelated to the real reason, which is just as intractable as the generalized, vague forces described in the prior paragraph. but it’s easier that way, & does not interfere with my quality of life (as it stands, nothing to go shouting to the heavens about but better than nothing). speaking in terms intended to obfuscate the facts while still acheiving release is more challenging than literally addressing the issues.
the desired end result is (hopefully) a post which is piercing, sharp, but not focused into a particular point.