when your cheeks are cold with tears and it seems hopeless. don’t start on me with my shortcomings. this is what it is.
i work hard. it’s not manly work, or womanly. it’s different, but it matters, but the house is not clean, … i do what i do and dammit it’s all about work. it’s all learning and i’m not wasting my time. i know what i know, it’s not worthless. whatever, i drink, use that against me.
i’m not a hole.
i’m not. a hole.
but that’s what i’m called, if i stay up this late, for whatever reason.