a hole

when your cheeks are cold with tears and it seems hopeless. don’t start on me with my shortcomings. this is what it is.

i work hard. it’s not manly work, or womanly. it’s different, but it matters, but the house is not clean, … i do what i do and dammit it’s all about work. it’s all learning and i’m not wasting my time. i know what i know, it’s not worthless. whatever, i drink, use that against me.

i’m not a hole.

i’m not. a hole.

but that’s what i’m called, if i stay up this late, for whatever reason.

26 thoughts on “a hole

  1. well, see now, mad bull – that is what i was afraid you meant. i hate to contemplate the balancing that lurks for us all as we revel in our little bits of joy.

  2. I understand… Its just one man’s view… But it is my view. Maybe I’m a pessimist, but it does seem cyclical to me. You’re going great guns, all is well inyour world, then bad stuff begins to creep in, and balance is restored. There is a good side to this. When you’re in a world of hurt, you might be able to draw strength from the idea that better must be around the corner…

    Still, I’d be glad to hear what your view is on the matter…

  3. Hey KD! Don’t sweat it, people always get pissed off if you’re having fun without them! Always! Its a law even. Remember what I was telling you about the god of balance 🙂

  4. Things are not good all the time for anybody. Life is a dark ride sometimes. You can either go for the ride or get off. How it turns out can be influenced by what you.

    MB -What god of balance?

  5. {{{{kd}}}}

    You are, without a doubt, the nicest stranger I ever met on the internet. If that counts for anything.

    livelifelove
    Lainie

  6. I’m sorry that you are having a tough time. It will pass, and until it does positive thoughts are being sent your way.

  7. I’m sorry that you are having a tough time. It will pass, and until it does positive thoughts are being sent your way.

  8. I’m sorry that you are having a tough time. It will pass, and until it does positive thoughts are being sent your way.

  9. 1. kd the good.

    2. kd the intelligent.

    3. kd the funny.

    4. kd the sensitive.

    5. kd the thoughtful.

    Sometimes, you just have to make lists.

  10. I feel like we should make a holiday, like in Civilization when your people are all happy, they celebrate “We Love the King Day!”

    We should make tomorrow (since today is Memorial Day) “We Love the kd Day!”

    And all post on our blogs why we love her. ^_^

    That’s what I say. Of course, I am a silly spider.

  11. Keep going.
    I’ve been in that dark tunnel a number of times as well.
    It gets better, honest 🙂

  12. yep – what THEY said – ‘sokay, kd, you are among friends – that doesn’t always count for much when the rl peeps crave attention, etc., but it DOES count – and so do you.
    >..

  13. oy. trust me, i had somebody sober actually cosigning that post for me.

    but i’m sorry it’s there. this is not at all representative of my life today.

    however, it’s … something from the olden days that seems to crop up now and again.

    and it never gets any easier. this is the first time in my LIFE i’ve ever had a beer for breakfast. and it’s ok, i mean, whatever. i love you guys.

  14. oh and for the record he added “and the house better be fucking spotless tomorrow”

    haha. right.

    not a fucking chance. nope.

  15. tell ‘im if he wants it clean, clean it himself. and beer for breakfast isn’t such a bad thing. i’m about to do it for the second time this weekend.

  16. i’m going back and forth between the foster’s and the coffee.

    i want one of those coffee beers like on the Drew Carey show. oh man. do i ever.

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