this is not really a friday morning type of entry. then again, it’s friday morning, and here it is, so there you go.
yesterday, i was waiting at the intersection of rose and gonzales to make a u-turn to get to krispy kreme, and i had a moment.
i looked around me at this intersection, with some twenty traffic lanes, including turn lanes, filled with cars, surrounded by expensive commercial real estate. i looked at the cars, and the conspicuous consumption. i tried to estimate the dollar value of just the automobiles within, say, a 500′ radius of me, and i couldn’t bear the thought. a brand new lincoln navigator swept past in the nearest turn lane and my mind shifted to thoughts of the surrounding land. paved, landscaped, prime real estate, meticulously planned and designed and laid out just so.
it’s too much. it is really too much. i tried to imagine in my mind fifty, a hundred, two hundred years before we got here, when it would have been wilderness, early settlers farming on the fertile soil, dirt roads being established, slowly overtaken by pavement and progress. and i thought, what have we done. what are we thinking? how can this be sustainable?
i tried to envision some pleasant science fiction, perhaps a utopian heinlein future, arising out of this. a world where technology had not ruined the earth, consumed all its resources and left it barren and spent.
i could not imagine.
by the time the light changed my eyes were damp and my throat was tight. but i drove through the donut drive-through, ordered a dozen assorted, and went on my way, pushing this out of my mind.
i don’t know what else to say about this right now, it tends to stall my thought process with an overwhelming sense of distant consequence.