unless you can. but me? no.
it’s about wanting what you can’t have, more than what you can. for instance: in the morning, i’m sitting at the computer and trying to get through the morning email, and i have to potty. but i’m sitting at the computer so i put that off. and then i hear it: the ominous sound of the door shutting and the fan going on. he’s going to be in there for awhile — and in an instant it goes from a vague urge to an urgent, squirming and whimpering urge.
another for instance: in the house in the morning, having coffee till i break a sweat, i’m not hungry to the point of being a little queasy. i mean, no way i could eat, and the food is right there. i sit at the computer rather than construct a lunch, because, well, i’m not hungry. at all. actually anti-hungry. but somewhere between the door to home and the door to work, i suddenly become ravishingly hungry. pretty much as soon as the food’s out of reach, i want the food.
this is either a weird psychological observation, or a clear indication that i spend too much time on the computer and not enough handling my own input/output requirements.