you can’t always get what you want

unless you can. but me? no.

it’s about wanting what you can’t have, more than what you can. for instance: in the morning, i’m sitting at the computer and trying to get through the morning email, and i have to potty. but i’m sitting at the computer so i put that off. and then i hear it: the ominous sound of the door shutting and the fan going on. he’s going to be in there for awhile — and in an instant it goes from a vague urge to an urgent, squirming and whimpering urge.

another for instance: in the house in the morning, having coffee till i break a sweat, i’m not hungry to the point of being a little queasy. i mean, no way i could eat, and the food is right there. i sit at the computer rather than construct a lunch, because, well, i’m not hungry. at all. actually anti-hungry. but somewhere between the door to home and the door to work, i suddenly become ravishingly hungry. pretty much as soon as the food’s out of reach, i want the food.

this is either a weird psychological observation, or a clear indication that i spend too much time on the computer and not enough handling my own input/output requirements.

12 thoughts on “you can’t always get what you want

  1. kd, the sentiment expressed is quite true. Sometimes we never seem to be satisfied with what we have in life. A couple years back, I had said to a good friend at work that there was nothing happening in my life. I never do that anymore. A few months later, things did start happening in my life. My mother was diagnosed with cancer and eventually died at the tender age of 56. It was easily the most emotionally traumatic 7 months of my life. Give thanks to the Almighty for life and for what we have!

  2. yeppers, Dr. D, it’s the old ‘be careful what you wish for’ syndrome.

    Linky? do i get to stay home and play on the computer all day to study the effects of waiting too long to eat or go potty? because i think i could do that. i could totally do that.

  3. Define “too much time on the computer”.

    Would getting up at 6:30 a.m. and sitting in front of a computer, going to work at 8:00 a.m. and sitting in front of a computer, and then coming home and sitting in front of a computer until 10:30 p.m. constitute spending too much time in front of a computer?

    From morning until night and I still can’t get anything done.

  4. sounds normal to me. except i get up a little later, and stay up a little later. but basically — well, perfectly normal.

  5. i would be ecstatic with two. but in ventura, with a 1% vacancy rate, you have to be a homeowner with five platinum cards to qualify for an apartment. plus, we’re getting a really, really good deal.

    but sometimes it’s so bad i consider going in the backyard. so what if it upsets the priests whose windows overlook my yard!

  6. My cry to have someone commit me before I sit in Depends in front of the computer still holds true. Some days, I get mighty close.

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