saw that on a license plate yesterday, thought that can’t be a good thing to constantly remind yourself of, can it? every time you see your car, you think, oh yeah, i’m freakin’ tired!
as it is, i think the words all the time. exhaustion is a big subject in my inner and sometimes not-so-inner dialogues. i’ll be sitting around talking to myself about it, and i know that putting the thoughts to words makes it worse. i should think energy thoughts, bright! cheerful! hyper! thoughts. but no. and yeah, i haven’t been to bed before two a.m. all week. and … um. huh?
anyway. i just wanted to apologize for having less than motivation and not being on top of things like i used to. i used to be the sort of person that answered an email right away, and now i actually have mails that i let go unanswered ’cause i’ve procrastinated them right out of mind. i forget. i flake. i float. but i have an excuse, you see, i’m tired. yes, i’m the one tiring myself out. so?
i don’t know where this is going. do you? i’m sorry if i’m slacking off on something i’m supposed to be doing right now. it’s ok to remind me. i really do lose track.
“and yeah, i haven’t been to bed before two a.m. all week. and … um. huh?”
Well??
what?
i’m an insomniac. except during the day. i could sleep all day. but at night? wiiiiiide awake. until i fall asleep then i wake up three or seven times or something.
i also stay in bed till well after 9AM. so, you know, there’s that.
2AM? Sounds like you’ve been on the net blogging too much. It is a bit addictive when you really get into it though. Try to get some good REM (Rapid Eye Movement) sleep!
Insomnia is my big vice, too. Mmmhm…
I turn 32 in 10 days. I’ve been registering at temp agencies all week, and being offered gigs that pay less than what I made as a 22yr old office manager (that sounds silly, but I started in that biz when I was 18. so I was seasoned. see.). One of the gigs is medical transcription: can you imagine a worse fit than me in a cubicle typing up autopsies from dictation all day? Just the thought of it exhausts me.
I’m gonna go pick a fig and remember I live in paradise.
Something you forgot? Yeah, uh… my Mustang! You were going to buy me one… remember?
um. right. now where did i put my money?
I was on the computer until 2am yesterday. It’s just sick, I tell you. I didn’t get to sleep until almost 4. I’ve got issues.