switzerland is more than a pretty place with nice watches and good chocolate. for me, switzerland is a state of mind. and it’s not free of controversy. switzerland, for instance, stood aside neutral during some of the worst atrocities in history. “But there is a still nagging question, and one that seems never to be asked: “How could a decent country remain `neutral’…?”.
in this teapot tempest we call the ‘blogosphere’, there are mini-wars aplenty. and these sorts of questions arise when i fail to identify myself with one side or another, and continue to interact with folks on both sides. i have hurt feelings and confused people. i have caused brow-wrinkling and head-scratching. the ‘how could you’ question is often asked or implied, or simply remains an unsaid undercurrent.
it’s mostly what’s kept me from posting as usual these past few days.
i know i’ve been entirely inconsistent and admittedly, this is just the way i am: malleable, subject to shifts in opinion that are dazzling in their utter illogic, influenced by whatever influence i’m under, whether the weather, the phase of the moon, the time of day, the beer number, or whether or not i’ve had a good poop. i am cursed with the ability to read two posts that are arguing directly with each other and agree with both. i am defined by my indecision. i’ve even applied my indecisiveness unevenly, and that will probably continue, though not with any predictable continuity.
so, apology panties for everyone, and a round of hot cocoa (spiked, most likely) for those who’d like to hang with me in this lovely alpine lodge.
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this doesn’t mean i’m not going to have opinions — that’s another thing i’ve been notblogging about. the fact i am hesitant to say things about things (as in, outside the blogosphere things) for fear of pissing someone off. that, i’m going to do less of (hesitating that is). but i’m considering using Jason as my role model and asking questions, rather than answering unasked ones. however i’m not delusional enough to expect myself to stick with the question format. sometimes, i’m just adamant, and that’s that. well, for awhile.