in my entry about the election, i alluded to voting. i did not describe actually voting myself, except to say in a general way what i thought about the process, and how i tend to vote when i do.
which in this case, i did not. the reasons were manyfold: i felt too hopeless with my political agenda. i did read the sample ballot cover-to-cover, it moved me to tears of fear and rage on several occasions. i was informed. and i knew it was an impossible battle from the vantage point of my views and where i live. the local elections would be decided by the landed gentry, and their take on the issues. the larger issues would be decided by the california electorate, which is quite liberal, perhaps the most liberal in the nation, and they didn’t need my sorry ass. but mostly it’s that i’ve been such an apathetic ball of apathy in the past, i’ve only recently taken any ineterest in this, and the form i had to fill in and return arrived just a day before it was due. would have required time off work to go down to the courthouse and file it in person.
yes i suck. will i refrain from complaining? hah. you know me better than that.
i think i’ll go crawl in a corner and weep with shame. maybe do that beercan crushing on the forehead trick i do. do you know how much that hurts? eh. well, no, i really won’t be beating myself about the head tonight.
but the thought is there.