what was silver blue and gold? color of the sky, right. and the karma chameleon was red gold and green. makes sense.
the day behind held moments of surprising triumph, more than enough. surprising because it should have been about screwuppage and shit like that. but no. things gelled, they coalesced, they … fell together quite by accident generally on the 17th blind bumbling try, so all that was really required was an excess of trying. this, this i possibly can do, and continue to.
dizzy and disinclined to sleep but not nearly as much hostility towards the concept as last night so flailing away at the last few excuses between me and trying. not sitting upright not trying, but lying down quiet darkness willing rather than willful.
ok, just not yet. intentions are good though, yes?