this is my opinion, & my opinion only. it’s also very whiny. i’m not very comfortable with this side of myself.
so let’s say you’re in a position to be a little bit philanthropic towards some family members. & let’s say these family members have been struggling, & struggling for a long, long time. so, you decide you want to do something nice for these struggling folks. and you’re very specific about the nice: you want to give them something they couldn’t have otherwise, say a trip to disneyland to stay at the hotel while you send a maid service to clean their house, which hasn’t been cleaned because one of them had two jobs & the other is an asshole who decided to stop cleaning at all because the other person was always working.
*breathe* sorry, must vent. clarity not a priority here. pissed.
in any case, if it ever happens that you’re in that philanthropic position, & something like this comes to mind? don’t do it. because it is an entirely fucked up thing to do. it’s a very arrogant thing to do. but it’s par for the course isn’t it. the asshole didn’t get that way by accident now did he? he was raised that way.
look, i don’t give a fuck how urgent you think it is that their child get to disneyland. that child is being driven around in a car with shitty brakes right now. (let the record show that this isn’t a problem for the one who drives a company car, & doesn’t have to drive down a bigass hill three or four times a week with no brakes, the same person who takes the unopened bills & dumps them on the other person’s computer chair & just expects they’ll be paid).
i wish i was making my point. i wish this could make sense without a novel-length introduction to explain exactly why it is i’m here, ostensibly putting up with this, & how overwhelmingly i wish i could afford to just pack up & leave now.
i’m sure the place would be much cleaner.